We walked down to the water (a whole block) and while we were standing there watching the sunset I really struggled to be present. Up to that point I had felt ‘in control’ of our situation, whether or not I really was. But Olive acting so strange… and the empty house… and the impending finality of it all became overwhelming and I shed some tears. Definitely not my best sunset in OB.
I went to my dad’s to return his van and say my goodbyes, then Debbie picked me up and we went to Leia’s for dinner. Lyn was there with little Hannah and then Sarah joined us with Thai food. It was a fun evening spent drinking wine and hearing about Sarah’s recent trip to Japan. And just chatting. Oh and eating strawberries with whipped cream which might be my favorite food in the entire world. Bummer that Jana couldn’t make it, but we’ll stay in touch! Keep telling myself that…
That night we didn’t sleep much on our camping airbed in an empty house. Olive wandered and howled/sang the WHOLE night. In the morning we still had so much to do! Stuff to finish packing, cram it all in the cars, drug the cats, clean up! Jason stopped over to say goodbye… Christopher (our live Christmas tree) was a source of stress; we wanted to bring him along. We got him the first year we were married when he was only 18 inches tall. Now he’s over six feet and they wouldn’t put him on the moving truck. It was either leave him behind or Jesse would have to fit him in the Jeep!
We were both upset about leaving our home of nearly seven years, our friends and family, really our life as we know it. And we were unable to comfort one another. So we locked up, hung the keys on the fence, got in our respective vehicles and drove away. Weird not to be able to talk through our feelings since we were in separate cars, but maybe good since I didn’t have anything comforting to say. Jesse had Christopher and two yowling cats to keep him occupied, and I had my thoughts.
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