secret

One year ago this week... we had closed on our house last Tuesday, got the movers on Thursday, had the old placed cleaned and were unpacking and settling in at the new place. On Sunday morning of Memorial Day weekend we went to brunch and then to the grocery store where I debated purchasing tampons or a pregnancy test - and settled on both. My monthly visitor was a little late but I figured that the delay was just from the stress of signing a mortgage and moving - I'd certainly been later before with no baby.

Back at the house, I followed the instructions on the pregnancy test and set it on the edge of the tub. I made Jesse go into the bathroom to read the results because I just couldn't stand it! He finally went in there... I can't imagine what was going through his mind when he saw it was positive. We were in shock! Thank goodness I had another weekend day to process the news.

Tuesday morning after Memorial Day I cold-called a doctor and scheduled an appointment for a whole MONTH later. I was still reeling under the knowledge that I was pregnant. For the first weeks it was difficult to look anyone in the eye because I had this great big secret... and I started feeling nauseous and light-headed.

Anyway, just nuts to look at the year in review. Time goes much too fast! The more I take on, the more I accomplish, but the less I have to give to any one thing. I'm trying hard now to finish up projects and not start new ones - I want to focus on Teddy and our family without guilty distractions.